I should be HAPPY cause Life is short

I was feeling a little emo during the long weekend break (took off on Mon and Tue) I had last week. I was thinking hard of the path I wanna create. Was it a carreer woman that I am looking for or just someone who works for a living/past-time? I had a great chat with the boyfriend to further understand what he sees in me and wants in me and SADLY... my tai tai life was DASHED! Let's just say that he doesn't want his wife to be a huang lian po and despite the effort of ensuring that I will NOT BE ONE even if I am jobless.. he still says NO!

I was feeling down as I could feel the stress level increasing at work. I had to learn a great deal of stuff on my own and on top of that.. I had to create a relationship with so many colleagues. It's not that I hate what I am doing.. just that many a times... I don't even feel myself at all. I don't even talk/behave like myself when I make small little talks with them. I felt more like..... ermm.... A LAO CHARBOR! My comical side just doesnt seems to portray at all in the OFFICE!

But well.. I'm still surviving well at work with my great manager who helps me alot. Life would probably be worst without such great help from her. Friends.. and readers.. please do me a big biggie favour.. DATE ME OUT MORE OFTEN so that I can release more stress after work! :)

I do miss

I do miss..

-those times when I can sleep late in the night without worrying abt work the next day
-those times when I head out late in the night without worrying if I would look like a zombie at work
-those times when I had no worries before heading to my lala land
-those times when I can have late night chat with anyone without bothering about my dark circles
-those times when I can spend romantic weekdays with my love
-those times when all I talk about is school, exams and RELATIONSHIPS
-those times when I camp myself in the library to mug with close friends
-those times when I can watch tv programs with mummy
-those times when I can have home cook lunch made by mummy
-those times when I bum around on my bed with tidbits beside me
-those times when I can shop ard town without having people squeezing around with me
-those times when I can head to the pool with the bf to enjoy the sunny scorching sun
-those times when I can plan for holidays without fearing of not getting my leaves approved
-those times when I can have ban mian as long as I want
-those times when I hogged onto MSN and gets a reply instanteously from friends

Oh well.. tell me when can I get to enjoy such lovely moments again? Probably 10 years from now and that will probably make me 35? I start to question myself what I really want and perceive in life? I have a good job now in a good company but frankly, am I really happy? Why am I always being so pessimistic in life? I seriously need some aid/help to make a better and stronger person. I wanna be one of those who heads to work with a happy look and puts on a smile even when crisis happens. Friends.. please tell me how on earth am I suppose to do that?