A Fearful Experience

If you were to ask me to decide my future, I think I have got the exact path of life I wanna create. This 2 days had been a torture for me. After a 4 days MC and a festive break, I was back to the reality life of finishing a truckload of work. It wasn't a happy start of a Thursday as I was as usual tasked a couple of unbelievable tasks to complete. The stress level intruded my life and I was trying to calm my anxiety down with a cup of Tea with milk(my fav.). I was trying to start on with my work when I suddenly I felt a numb feeling at the back of my head. I was scared stiff and being the usual PARANOID woman, I felt nauseous and giddy. It got even worse when I couldn't concentrate on my work and even walking around. I just felt like collapsing down at any moment.


Thinking that drinking another huge cup of my favourite tea would perk me up a little more, I bought another glass of TEA with MILK. It didnt get any better of course. I was really scared at that very moment as the job task kept multiplying and my illness kept deteriorating. I headed home right after the clock strike 6 as I couldn't concentrate anymore longer.

Back home with the concern of my family members, I felt even worst as I got even fearful of the current state I was. I guess it was the caffeine from the tea that had gotten my anxiety level higher. I felt super gan cheong and nauseous. I didnt even know what I was doing and suddenly, my hands and feet got really cold. My dad carried me to my room and mummy made milo for me when she realize that I had only bread the whole day( thanks to my diet program). I tried sleeping to get the pain off my head but as I lay down on the pillow, my head just felt that it had a BALUKU on it. I didnt really dare to get into my lala-land as I thought I won't be able to wake up anymore(very silly I know... thanks to the TEA again!). My eyes was wide open the whole night and I just felt very scared yet anxious (over nothing). It was as though my bf had broken up with me.

One hour passed after another and soon, it hit 7am! I tried to appear fine and headed to work as I thought that it won't be nice to get another day off. Daddy told me to give him a call if anything happens and I left home with a tear dropped at the door step. Upon reaching the office, I felt extremely cold and sick. Some colleagues of mine made me hot milo when they saw me shivering. I tried to stay focus with that website maintainence but to no avail. I GAVE UP at 11am when I decided to see a doctor.

Darling came to pick me up and I was glad that the doctor told me that it was a normal illness. I told him that I was scared that something bad would happen and he laughed and say.. WHAT COULD HAPPENED? I felt silly of course and after the much assurance, I'm much better. It was actually a stress-related illnesses where you feel as though your brain/skull was squeezed by a spanner. It's not pain but you just feel as though you have a big baluku on your head. I was glad that it was a minor illness and I promised myself to take lots of care from today onwards. NO MORE LARD, FATS, EGG YOLKS, OIL, DIETING PROGRAM and UNHEALTHY FOOD! I will never stress myself so much again and would promise myself to exercise more and eat more fruits and vegetables. It was a super FEARFUL EXPERIENCE I swear which till now, I'll never forget this day again.